LORD Here I Sit

Lord here I sit

Contemplating it all;

An aberration of desire

Brings forth

Unwanted needs

And hopeless conversations.

Seeing the horizon

Its majestic beauty

Of outer rims and conscious will,

Struggling against self

To absolve the mind

Of reasoned indecency.

I want what I want

What do I want?

I want death.

I want destruction.

I want a life absent of love.

What do I want?

I want life.

I want progress.

I want a life brimming with love.

Aforementioned duty

Brings me to a recognition

That what I want

And what I do

Revolve along the same Son.

To escape reality

Into a world of fantasy

And succumb thereto

Dreams and needs

Debased and cruel

But accepted nonetheless.

I know love,

I know hate,

Which shall I choose?

9/23/09, MR

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The Call

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The Universe's Little Reminder

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Online Dating - 11/18/17

It seems like this world of online dating is for shallow people with shallow dreams. “Beauty is soul deep” they say but not when you are defined by a handful of stilled images. “Am I fuckable?” is what the seekers are truly asking, judging their worth on a point scale where Appearance > Soul. But I want a man (insert woman) who is kind, loving, and sweet. Translation = an ‘8-10’ in the world’s eye. Biographies that say something albeit nothing about who the person truly is. “Hey there” might just be the scariest two syllables in the infinite space of the internet for the hopeful inquisition can be and is often met with a deafening silence. “Am I fuckable?” It appears the answer is no. Heart hurt. These are real people, with real lives, with living souls. Can callousness be so cliché? Or normalized? Sensitized? What say you? -MR, 11/18/17

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